sometimes

i get so worried about graduating, and finding the right job and doing the right thing and how my life will change, that i just want to stay in school forever.

but sometimes, like tonight, i meet people and talk to people and start to realize all the possibilities that are out there, that i just can't wait to get started.

i need to hold onto this feeling, for as long as possible. i think this means stepping out of my usual routine and pattern, and putting myself out there more. its not an option, really, at this point. it's the only way.