what to do

on one hand...

i've been looking forward to this weekend for monthes

on the other...

i've got mono

on one hand...

i'd get to see my 12 closest friends from college, altogether, in one place

on the other...

no matter how careful i am, i could infect someone

one one hand...

i'd get to visit a beautiful ranch in colorado - ponies and lakes and wildflowers

on the other hand...

there's a very sweet boy to take care of me here

on one hand...

i'm know i would have fun, despite my illness

on the other...

i can't drink, can't smoke, and tend to get tired and grumpy by 9 o'clock at night


i know that not going is the right thing for my body. i'm just not sure about my mind.